Enough- March 2016

I've had enough.
Enough of feeling inadequate and unwanted.
Like I am constantly being taunted that I am unworthy and disgraceful
and that I will never be able to make up for all of my wrong doings

I've had enough
Enough of feeling like a lack of male attention in punishment for my sin
That I am inferior to every other believer because they don't know what I've done
and I don't want them to either.

I've had enough
enough of constantly finding things wrong with me
To add to the list of discrepancies that only sum up to this insurmountable weight of guilt and shame

I've had enough
because I alone am not enough
Because I've become worn out trying to earn what I have already been given
I've already been set free from the bondage I chain myself in
I am not unworthy and disgraceful.
But because He chose me I am worth it and able to experience his grace more.
He was paying attention to me on the Cross, when He gave his life and covered
the cost of my sin.

I deserve the guilt
I deserve the shame
I deserve the consequence
But Jesus took that and He obliterated my self- righteousness

Shame is finished.
Condemnation is no more.
Guilt is done.
And Christ is
Enough.

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